More often than not, I now find myself sitting in silence.

For several hours at a time, I sit with no television or music to distract my mind. Just silence and space so that I breathe.

This silence is of God. It’s not the absence of noise, but the presence of peace. The outward expression of inner silence is the perfect place for me to be.

It calls me, captivates me, and comforts me in a way that I do not have words to describe.

I am not its prisoner. Instead, I am its willing and welcomed guest, invited to dwell in a space where calmness and freedom abound.

I am not lonely. Though I may appear alone, Jehovah Shalom is beside me, and even He sits in silence as He holds my hand.

This silence is prayers answered. I recognize that these moments are built on the backs of thousands of tears cried and desperate prayers uttered. I give my thanks to God, Who has been better than good.

I have earned this silence. After any battle, it is customary to reward the victor with treasures and riches galore. This silence is my spoils from a battle long fought and hard won.

Promised pregnancy permeates this peace. In the silence, I watch as God skillfully and delicately curates gifts within me that will bless others. As He works, He prepares me in every way for their delivery. I may be silent, but I am not idle.

The work continues in the silence. The healing work. The financial work. The writing work. The silence does not prohibit their growth; it amplifies it. In this place, time has no limit, and the work gets done willingly.

Noticeably absent in this silence is my fears. The thoughts of doubt, confusion, and rejection cannot find me in this silence. I am free, and fear is not my friend.

Only joy remains. My memories of the pain have not been erased; I can recall each hurt, each ache, and each disappointment. Yet in this silence, only the joy of the Lord prevails.

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Beloved, this is my prayer for you. I sincerely pray that you have moments of silence with our God and that in those moments, He speaks bountifully to your heart.

Be blessed.