Beloved, I was about to hit PUBLISH when God told me to change my path.
I spent all day Saturday celebrating the completion of my second master’s degree and spending time with my loves- my besties, my man, and his beautiful daughter. I spent extra time with my man on Sunday, watching tv and just chilling. It was the beautiful escape and relaxation that my heart needed. Yes, I probably should have spent the afternoon with my mother but, to be honest, sometimes that day is a bit hard for me.
Why, you may ask?
Well…
I am 36 years old and I am not a mother. I am an aunt, Godmother, mentor, and teacher so, yes, I give motherly love and advice, but I have not carried a child or adopted one… so I am not a mother. Sometimes it is hard for me to live up to the demands of society which say that I should be a mother several times over at this point of my life. It gets harder every year because I hear implied judgment when people speak those dreaded words to me on the 2nd Sunday of May every year. It’s like a subtle dig and reminder that at this age, I should have a family because that is a major part of the American dream, right? This year, someone added the piece “do you have any kids?”
No, ma’am, I’m 36 and I don’t have any.
No, ma’am, I’m 36 and I don’t want any.
No, ma’am, I’m 36 and I have never carried any.
That’s me- Michelle Early- the woman with a big heart but no kids.
Days like Mother’s Day and Father’s Day cause me to think about those who have loved and lost… or those who desire but cannot conceive. I cannot imagine the hurt that they experience on these days and sometimes I wish these holidays did not exist.
Don’t hate me, Beloved, but if we need a holiday to celebrate and love on our parents, we are doing something wrong. The love that we have for our parents should be a daily thing. But I digress…
Today I want to take a moment to check in on you. Beloved, how was your weekend? What difficulties or troubles did you face this weekend that you would just like to leave at God’s altar? I offer you the space and time to just cry out to God and surrender your heart to Him.
Have a Marvelous Monday, Beloved, and know that no matter where you are in life, you are loved and cherished greatly.
Be blessed.
PS- If you would like to see pictures from my weekend, click HERE.
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