Just fight a little longer my friend
Lecrae featuring Tori Kelly, “I’ll Find You”
It’s all worth it in the end
But when you got nobody to turn to
Just hold on, and I’ll find you
I’ll find you
I’ll find you
Just hold on, and I’ll find you
I remember the first time I heard that song by Lecrae and Tori Kelly. I loved the beat and the smooth vocals that accompanied the melodic rhymes but it wasn’t until recently that its words took on a new meaning within my soul. Have you ever just sat down and listened to the song with your eyes closed and your heart open? I mean really and intentionally listened to the words of the song and concentrated on the Spirit and how He inspired that song? Click here to listen to the song and then click here to read its lyrics. The song is beyond dope and I just love it to pieces. I don’t know, maybe I am reading too much into it, but the last time I listened to the song I heard something that I didn’t hear the first time… its words came from Christ.
When we open our bibles to the synoptic gospels (Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John), we learn about Christ, His love for the Father and His will, and our Father’s love for us. Jesus’ desire to walk with us and be our friends is deeply rooted in His love for us and desire to reunite us with God. When I hear this song, my mind pictures Peter walking on water. I close my eyes and my heart sees a man trying so hard to wrestle within himself and finally deciding to trust Christ. In trusting Christ, He says, “hold on (endure) and come to Me.” Yet when Peter lost sight of Him, my heart envisions Christ saying, “hold on, I’ll find you.”
Oooo-weee, Jesus!
Beloved, that was me this week. I was Peter… and Christ had to extend His hand to remind me to hold on and that He would find me.
Did you read last week’s #MondayMessage? In the message I talked about how anxiety had been consuming me and God revealed the real source of my pain- fear of separation. As I continued to sink deeper into the pit of fear, I felt like I was falling beyond the point of rescue. My anxiety was possessive, consuming, and deafening; it wanted me dead and out at any cost. Have you ever felt like that? Like the only emotion that you could feel was numbing fear? Like at any moment you would collapse under the weight of insufferable fear? Have you? Or maybe it’s just me… but that had been my story for too long and I finally reached the point where I had to extend my hand and ask for my Friend to help me.
And He said:
Just fight a little longer my friend
It’s all worth it in the end
But when you got nobody to turn to
Just hold on, and I’ll find you
I’ll find you
I’ll find you
Just hold on, and I’ll find you
To be found by an omnipresent God may seem a bit weird or even a little off. The word “find” implies that something was once lost… and if God is everywhere at the same time, then how can He “lose” someone? Yet like a parent playing Hide-n-seek with their precocious child, our Father always sees us where we are, but He respects our wishes/free will and “finds” us only when we call on Him.
So call on Him.
In one way or another, I often remind myself (and you) that I am not perfect. No matter how many posts I make or prayers I utter, I will never be perfect. And in my imperfection, I often run away from God. Yet even in my running, God still reigns. And in His sovereignty He reminds me that I am never too “lost” to be found in Him. As life gets too hard for me to bear, He silently whispers to my heart:
Just hold on and I’ll find you.
Be blessed.