I did a thing.
Somewhere during the beginning of this quarantine I’m so sure that I uttered/typed the words, “God is slowing us down for a reason.” I know I had to have said that because the words are so true- He really is slowing us down! How else could you explain the closure of schools, stores, recreational activities, flights, and social lives as we know it? May God bless the creators of Zoom, Google Meet/Hangouts, Facetime, Facebook Messenger, Google Pay, Apple Pay, Doordash, UberEats, etc. because they have literally been saving our quarantined behinds from imminent breaks in sanity. Even before the Great Quarantine of 2020 (my new name for it), I had been an avid user of some of the services. I skipped as many lines as possible by ordering items from my phone and simply arriving at a particular place to pick them up upon fulfillment. And don’t get me started on contactless payments! I’ve been using Samsung Pay and Google Pay for well over 18 months and pride myself on seldom having to carry a physical card/wallet anywhere! Technology is amazing and I am thankful that the Great Quarantine of 2020 is showing the masses just how beneficial technology can truly be.
Yet and still, I did a thing.
If nothing else the Great Quarantine of 2020 was supposed to cause all of us to take a look around and value what truly matters. We were supposed to cherish our loved ones, learn the true importance of time, and find new and innovative ways to accomplish the daily tasks of our lives. Yes, this time was designed to slow us down and save lives. We were supposed to come out of this time with less on our plates and more in our hearts and minds. We were not supposed to walk away more burdened and dejected by the enormity of life, no, we were supposed to walk away free from various forms of bondage. We were supposed to finally read that book, tackle that house project, try that new recipe, love on our family, workout with no limitations (look, I’m still praying on my deliverance for this one), and declutter our lives. This was supposed to be our opportunity to RECLAIM OUR TIME!
But… I did a thing.
I as walked in the light rain today after work, doing my heart’s duty of participating in the #iRunWithMaud movement, my mind raced as I recalled all the items on my plate. There is God, church, work, community involvement (Delta, Board membership, mentoring/volunteering, etc.), family, friends, the boyfriend (yep, I have one of those and he is truly a gift from God!), and other things that I’m probably forgetting. Oh wait, I remember now… ME… I should be on that list somewhere, too! I have so much to do on a daily basis and I just know that God was trying to use this time to slow me down so that I could give Him some extra time…
However, I did a thing.
On its own, this thing wasn’t so bad. [Insert sentences of justification.] This thing will actually bring me closer to God and assist me in ministering to HIs people. This thing is not only the culmination of my life’s dream but also the beautiful marrying of every aspect of my life. This thing is huge in every way possible and I giddily and gleefully walk into this new thing. But my heart wonders still…
Did God tell me to do a thing?
Here’s the funny thing about life. We can get so caught up in the allure of things around us that we begin to think that what we think is good for us, God thinks is good for us and has called us to do. I can’t even recall how many times I’ve conceived a “good idea” and walked in its path, only to find out that it was not only a bad idea but also not the will of God. So as I look at this thing that I did, I wonder if I took a leap of faith or jumped to my own conclusion.
Hmm… too late now; I’m deep in this thing now.
Beloved, will you pray with me for a second?
Father, in the name of Jesus, I thank You for Your grace that saves and Your love that heals. As I attempt to walk in this world, I know that there are many times where I walk away from the path that You have paved for me and I ask that You would forgive me. I come before You today, humbly asking that You would guide me and grant me discernment and wisdom in every area of my life. From here on out, Lord, I ask that You would help me to walk in Your will alone. In Jesus’ name. Amen.