What makes you nervous?

Above all else, what makes me nervous is failure.  It took me three decades to realize that my greatest fear – the thing that worries me more than anything – is missing the marks that are set for me, either by me or by society. Which is crazy because, why should I care what society says??? Yet too often, I become paralyzed by the expectations of others and my inability to live up to those expectations.

• What if I don’t stay after school to grade those assignments? I will disappoint students and they will suffer…
• If I don’t answer every text message, email, and call, I may miss vital information or be behind…
• What if I give my all… and it’s still not enough to make him stay?

I am constantly at war with myself and my own internal thoughts and, above all else, the thought of letting down Future M.E. both terrifies me and makes me extremely nervous.