Y’all remember my post from last week?
The one where I laid my entire heart bare and talked about how I didn’t know what God would do, but I knew He would do something?
Yeah, well, I just wanted to pop in to say… I was right.
Actually, God truly showed out last week and I’m here to let you know that God has a beautiful sense of humor.

For our school district, we worked Monday through Thursday of last week, and our Spring Break began on Friday morning. Right now, I write to you from the beautiful confines of my one week break; designed to give my body rest, while revitalizing my spirit and mind for the days ahead. The first 138 days of this 180 school year have truly put some wear and tear on my spirit, while my body worked hard to play catch-up. However, as I listen to the birds chirping in the air and see the sun rising in the East sky (albeit, from behind the rain clouds), I truly thank God for the calm that He has granted me.

But I digress.
Where was I?
Oh yeah; I was RIGHT.

While the work week was exhausting, Good Friday brought forth the beginning of what I’d like to call “relationship grace.” Our church did something different for Good Friday service, that eloquently fused the Seven Last Sayings of Christ and corporate prayer in a way that truly honored God while feeding our souls. In the days leading up to Good Friday, our church had been in a season of fasting and praying. The fast was designed to weaken our bodies so that our spirits could be strengthened. I truly believe that during the fast, God allowed my heart to be broken wide open so that He could remove years of pain, heal me as only He can, and then allow His love to sew my heart back together again. Friday was indeed the beginning…it was the beginning of the end.

The end of my isolation.
The end of my doubts.
The end of my belief that no one loves me.

The broken heart that developed during the fast was emptied out of its contents, giving space for God to fill it up on Friday night. In His divine filling, He took the time to remind me of the importance of relationships. He helped me to see that while only Jesus can save me, Jesus did not come to save only me. Jesus’ love and salvation are for all but when I isolate myself from people (as I so often do), others do not get a chance to see the beauty of our God and His wondrous love. The fast broke me, but…

Good Friday reminded me that friendships are important and invaluable relationships.
Silent Saturday helped me see the beauty of romantic relationships and helped me fall deeper in love with my Love.
Resurrection Sunday showed me what familial love looks like, especially when there is no pain involved.

It’s funny because I went into this fasting season, looking for guidance on how to move professionally and in ministry, and God replied with two words- RESTORE RELATIONSHIPS.

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I’m not healed, but I’m healing.

I say that often but I want to explain what I mean. When I say “healed”, to me that means that I have no more room to grow, nothing to correct with prayer and faith, and that my time on this earth is nearing its end. Yet when I say that I am “healing”, I am being extremely humble and saying that I am trusting God to continue to work through me, grow me, and heal others. Healing versus healed means that God is not done and He still has great work ahead of what we can see. Additionally, God is still healing all of the relationships (friendships, professional, familial, etc.) that I am in right now. While HEALING is taking place, that means that there is still time to make changes and there is still time for growth. This is the time right now to make the changes that will indeed break generational curses and build the future on HEALED solid ground.

So as I’m healing, I have the unique ability to see where I currently am, versus where I’ve been. Thinking about how far God has brought me causes me to appreciate His humor all the more. You see, I envisioned my life going one way, yet God had other plans. His plans have always been for unity, wholeness, and love. On this April Fool’s Day (which is also Easter Monday), I challenge you to truly sit in the beauty of God’s hands today. Step back and watch Him work! In doing that, you will see not only how much He loves you, but hopefully you will also see His life-changing sense of humor.

Be blessed.